Analysis...

Through numerous discussions with CaM... I have gone through what some would call a phase of self analysis and discovered a few things about me that I either didn't know or knew but forgot somewhere along the way... they are listed in the order they came to me...

• Girls with French Accents, Long Legs, Ridiculously Cute Smiles, Wide eyes and Shape... drive me crazy in all ways possible!
• I think too much... maybe at some point in my life I took the phrases like 'look before you leap' and 'think before you speak' too literally and therefore have prevented myself from taking risks that could have helped me become a better, more well rounded person with more life experience than I currently have.
• I can love some one who occasionally smokes... (this is a big deal).
• I can love and feel loved by others.
• I can hurt more than I ever thought possible.
• I can be angry with someone and still love them.
• I can be jealous... a feeling that I had considered myself to be better than... apparently I need to work on that still.
• I'm not doing, nor currently planning to do any of the things I would like to while I'm still young(ish). I would like to change this... soon.
• I have become a working stiff by the age of 26... and am for some reason ashamed of it. And somewhat fear full that if I lose/quit my job... my life would become uncomfortable.
• I only do some of the things I consider fun... and may have become a bit of a prude because of it. I take myself a little too seriously.
• I have not been living life to the fullest. I currently live more for the distant future than for the present or very near future. I would like to change this.
• The desire to live my life and experience everything in it with someone else, runs deeper than I ever imagined. I have a fear of being alone in life despite the fact I'm surrounded by great friends and family.

[Arbyn should love this :) ]