...Language Barriers cont'd...

Language strikes again... after talking some more with her a realization dawned on me... that I was way more confused about what was going on than I needed to be. All this was brought on by a discovery that her use of tenses was used inappropriately creating a false timing for certain events in relation to other events. As well as misinterpretation of intended meanings, being that certain words were used in a context that would lead someone (myself) to believe that things were still happening even though, really they weren't... anymore. It doesn't excuse the fact that the initial events happened over an unacceptably short period of time, or seemingly so... but... I'm done with that.

All of this over numerous conversations had lead to a ball of confusion... swirling around in my head as I tried to understand her, and what she was/is thinking about me and other people. It was getting to the point where I was contemplating whether I was strong enough to still be friends with her because of how I was feeling. Because of this confusion it had made things seem worse to me, than they truly were. I realize this today and thinking about it makes me a little bit embarrassed that I would have threatened a friendship over something as simple as the context of a sentence or paragraph!

I laugh now... seeing that maybe my past blogs about this very topic may have served to be a form of foreshadowing to the mess of emotions I've been trying to deal with over the last month.

lol!!
:)