...

Despite the fact that I have great friends...
great family...
I still have this empty feeling...

a feeling of being alone in life... I am so fucking tired of this feeling.

I try to control myself... and the desire to go out with someone purely to have them there filling this void... I don't want to get involved with someone because of this feeling. I want to be involved with someone whether for the rest of my life or for one night because of mutual passion. Purely physical, mental or anything other than for the sake of not being alone.